Teenage angst

Looking back on my old posts from an old blog I can see how much has changed. I was anxious, bitter, confused and very sensitive. Moving away, meeting new people and finding out more about myself has helped me create a more suitable lifestyle. I know I haven't figured myself fully, but for now it's working. More so than 2 years ago. One thing that I can still keep with me is this, dated March 7, 2007 it says, "all this will only make sense to me. all that i say will only make sense to me. all that i think is an interpretation of how i think things are." I was so hurt back then, trying to create a stable relationship with my parents and friends and boyfriends at the time.

I am so refreshed. A new state of mind is approaching, and I am ready.

I am grateful.


Also, this was stumbled across.
I hope you know this will create a lasting impact.

him (11:42:52 PM): hahah
him (11:42:54 PM): oh yes
him (11:42:58 PM): seriously sometimes
him (11:42:59 PM): out of nowhere
him (11:43:03 PM): just haning out with you
him (11:43:07 PM): i'll get really nervous
him (11:43:12 PM): when i realize how not ugly you are
him (11:43:15 PM): and that you're talking to me
him (11:43:19 PM): and i'll just be sitting there
him (11:43:23 PM): in the middle of our conversation
him (11:43:27 PM): thinking to myself
him (11:43:28 PM): wow
him (11:43:31 PM): she's really talking to me
him (11:43:33 PM): this is weird
him (11:43:36 PM): and all that will come out
him (11:43:36 PM): is
him (11:43:37 PM): um
him (11:43:38 PM): yeah
him (11:43:38 PM): um
him (11:43:39 PM): yeah
him (11:43:40 PM): um
him (11:43:40 PM): yeah
him (11:43:41 PM): um
him (11:43:41 PM): yeah
him (11:43:43 PM): and i'm like
him (11:43:44 PM): fuck
him (11:43:48 PM): i'm such an idiot
him (11:43:52 PM): but she's so badass
him (11:43:56 PM): like you're not even real
him (11:45:51 PM): yeah
him (11:45:53 PM): i'm lame
him (11:45:55 PM): but yeha
him (11:45:56 PM): seriously
him (11:45:59 PM): like sometimes i feel like
him (11:46:07 PM): i'm not really looking at you or something
him (11:46:10 PM): liek we're just there
him (11:46:12 PM): existing or something
him (11:46:15 PM): and then i'm like
him (11:46:16 PM): she's a girl
him (11:46:17 PM): like
him (11:46:29 PM): and i'm not annoyed
him (11:46:31 PM): at all
him (11:46:35 PM): and she's interesting
hanuhh (11:47:04 PM): i like that you're interesting too
hanuhh (11:47:14 PM): and sometimes i say stupid things but you don't mind and just laugh at it
him (11:47:16 PM): that's like
him (11:47:18 PM): the best part
him (11:47:34 PM): if you ever feel like you have to impress me
him (11:47:37 PM): throw that feeling out
him (11:47:41 PM): cause you just being you
him (11:47:43 PM): is way legit

Thank you, Him.