Christmas, Christmas, Christmas

Here we go again. Christmas time is here again.
I've never been a huge holiday person. I always can't wait till it's over, honestly. My friends are always with their families so I can't hang out with them.
I guess I should explain why I don't like Christmas.
My family is not traditional in the slightest bit. All I grew up knowing was that its supposedly Jesus' birthday. Which is true, but not on this exact day. I have never gotten presents underneath a Christmas tree, I have never had a family gathering of extended relatives. It has always been, "Here's some money, do what you want with it." Which in my case is kind of cool, but not thoughtful. If I could have a clear communication with the parentals, possibly a gift would be purchased. I have never received a wrapped gift from my parents. Actually, I lied. One Christmas when I was about six years old my parents surprised my sister and I with a gift. My sister received an easel and I received a nylon stringed guitar. Pretty sweet, I know. That was that. My first and last Christmas with a gift. Christmas of 2008, was a fiasco. It consisted of my dad getting wasted and crying and my mom pouring his booze down the sink and then proceeding to pray next to him AND then started speaking in tongue. What dysfunction.. I look back on it now and I laugh. It totally is a Yoo kind of Christmas.
Christmas is awesome for the rest of us, but to me Christmas is just another day that I have to wait to hang out with my friends. So I'll wait. This year though I am way more appreciative of my family. Plus I think all those years of not really receiving a gift has prepared me for the time of recession. We can't afford gifts, so really it's not a big deal at all. I appreciate this time with my family and to me that's all that really matters. No gifts makes me love them even more. I appreciate them just as much and I'll love them just as much. With or without material goods.
Now, let's hike!

I'll be fine

I feel that I'm always going to be running away. I'm a flake, I know.
I don't know where I'll be. With who, where?
I don't know, but i find peace in that.
If I can find someone to run away with me I'll be content.
I am in the pursuit of happiness.


"She doesn’t have to be your entire world. Just a tiny village. Somewhere. Anywhere. On your map."